Happy is an understatement.

9:24pm: Next time , Lighten up a little bit, im only 15.

2:20pm: 1. Go into your LJ archive
2. Find your 17th post
3. Find your 8th sentence (or closest to it)
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions
5. Tag 5 people on your friend list

"ITS AMAZING!"

-- about Jakes Women.

1. Libby
2. Cathy
3. Stacey
4. BEcky
5. Amie

But before you do, change the number of the post, change the sentance, so we keep getting random sentances, alrighty then!

6:33pm: Thanks...
Thank you for the support guys. It means a lot. i know its over something stupid, but this is something i want to do. so im gonna keep trying.








Some day i swear, there'll be a celebration throughtout OZ thats all to do with me.

9:16am: Its been a while.
Well Last night was the concert at school. There was a lot of people there. It was amazing. We only printed 80 tickets, and we sold more than that!! It was really good money maker! lol ... Insufficent Funds had some funny songs, They were really good. The little kid Mikey was funny. Then LT. MOTA CAR!!! They were really really good. Frank had to be loving that! lol. They threw out glow necklaces. Exciting. Then they took a break and had another awesome session. We tried to get them to play 99 Red Balloons , levinson was there, we offered him to play the third guitar. but Jake boston didnt know the bass for it. SO oh well. it was really good in all..


Today is the car wash at Tom's Farm... HOPEFULLY we will make more money!!


COME GET UR CAR WASHED BY US SEXY SPEECH TEAM!! HECK YES!!!!!!!!!!!



GO SPEECH TEAM 05-06!! ITS GONNA KICK ASS!

8:19pm: Sigh.

5:14pm:

UGH

 

 

Immaturity.

 

 

 

 

 

8:34am:

GOING TO MAGIC WATERS TODAY!!!!

 

 

Dont know when i will arrive home, but if its important, leave a comment!

2:13am: Im really done worrying about the musical.

I have decided i dont know if i really want a lead anyways.

Ill just let a upperclassmen get it....


good idea alex.

10:58pm: WOOOOOO!!!

LAKE GENEVA TOMARROW!!!

 

THIS IS GOING TO BE FuN!!!

11:58pm: It will give me dirrahea
Well tonight was really fun. i had my show and Rosette Becky and Sarah went. It was quite a fun time. Let me tell you how much they clapped and cheered for me!! lol... then after the show they ran up to me like screaming teenagers running up to the backstreet boys! Then after they took me to out to colonial. And they were basically hitting on the waiter the whole time.

we had a laughing contest to see who could make the dumbest laugh. idk who won. Then becky was looking at something on the menu and said i cant have it , it will give me dirrehea. So that was entertaining. Rosette stood up and had a 55 year old man check her out. By the time we left becky had already wrote a note on a napkin to waiter with her fone number!

12:49am: My goal.

One of my goals for the summer is to be more confident in myself. I want to be confident with who i am. i know that i can be i am every so often. But i want to be hey im me and if u dont like it.. too bad. cause i want to get over worrying about how people feel about me.

Another one is i want to be comfortable with my performing abilities. i have been really weary about my singing voice. cause i know to get this part i want i need to be confident. i just need to work on it more, and say i can do this y'all and i will do amazing.


i know i have the commitment, i just need more the ability.


i know many of you dont read this at all... but tahts alright.

1:54am:

                    Famous*

 *its that simple

 

 

10:19pm: If you believe that i am capable of doing any good on a solo.. or even!! A LEAD IN A MUSICAL SUCH AS YOU KNOW BEAUTY AND THE BEAST TELL ME... Honestly though.. swearing on ur life

11:39pm: Well i decided to add the fact that the past few days i have felt really stupid/ People at the shows were talking about their 4.4 grade averages and im like wow.. yeah... and then like someone was like i got a B on my report card so my grade point average is a 3.909 .. wow i was happy to get a 3.68 .. i guess its not tha much different. Im thinking im gonna kick ass this year at school. Study a bit more for tests since i never do. only for finals but thatas reasonable right? WRONG! Um Musical Time Machine is next weekend also. i know a lot of you are gonna be at school seeing cinderella but find some time for my show!! Its amazing.. here is the basica information on the poster...or go to www.CTEELGIN.com and the information is there too!!!

11:31pm: BECKY MELMAN IS EIGHTEEN TODAY!! HECK YEAH!! YOU ALL BETTER WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

4:43pm:

Alright everyone. So the musical for next year is Beauty And the Beast. And im so excited to do it! Its not as good as Grease.. but hey. Its a fun show.

 

If you believe that i can get Lumiere... Or A.k.a the Candle.. PLEASE TELL ME!!!!!!!!!

4:03pm: Tonight is the opening night for Jake's Women. That is gonna rock so much! SO many people are coming! ITS AMAZING!!! this is going to be the biggest play... cause normally they never have anyone show up for the plays .. but this one is different!!

Last night i went to kensies!!! it was really fun! i love you kens!!! Then we were like laying on the couch and i like jiggled her throat and it made this weird noise!! IT WAS SO COOL!! lol... i almost peed my pants it was that funny, it was really addicitng to do it! It was nice seeing kensie last night . love you babe!



Well theres only 14 school days left!! That is very exciting to here!



I dont know what else i should so say ttyl!



----alexAnder----

12:19am: new favorite quote

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small people who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary.

 

 Impossible is nothing.

7:25pm:

 

 

 

 

You get through one day at a time and find a way of staying numb, dont look in the mirror to see what youve become

 

 

 

3:58pm:

3:45pm: Well well well...like i sed it would come back.. GUESS WHAT IT DID!!!!

I woke up this morning at like 5 ... and i was lying there thinking about things. and i got so upset. And i was thinking, if i keep thinking about it.. ill get more upset.. so i fell alseep upset.

And then i woke up around 1:30. And i rolled out of bed and saw no sun shining.. im sick of cold weather. i want to be able to walk around with like no shirt on and stuff.

And everything popped back in my mind! so im kinda sitting here thinking of what to say.  Im just remenising over this week and what shit has happened.

This whole week i was saying to myself,  " PEOPLE ARE STUPID " as it is my new motto. there is a select few who are not. But a mjority of u all are just dumb and idiotic. Then i went by thinking i could live so much of a better life without half of you. SO many people are so inconsiderate.

ITs not just me. I look at it from other peoples persepctives and its still there. But i go back to me and im like WHOA this is a shitty way to be thinking and live. so from now im gonna try and be positive about EVERYTHING.

 

It took so long for the Truth to come out.

1:01am: Famously Known.
Hey Hey!! Well im doing a lot better with my emotions and shit, but thats not sure to last! its just normal for me to feel down, so even though i have been happy... it has been weird, there has A.L.W.A.Y.S been that one thing that just bugs me... im sure all of u know what im saying. but yeh!

Tonight Kensie and I went to Brunswick Zone and went bowling. She won the first two games, then i won the third with a score of 138!!! WOO HOO!! I was doing so good! It was good to be out and not see people from school, that always happens!!

So last night i had MUSICAL TIME MACHINE auditions. The dance was hard, but so easy at a 4th time lol. My song didnt go to well though. I know i get so fucking nervous at auditions i lose pitch and stability, but KENSIE DID AWESOME!!!!!!

So last night i got home and layed in my room thinking if i should stay up and do all my homework and suffer today.. and well i guess i conciously chose not to lol. i woke up at 2:30 with a dry mouth, and my contacts still in. And shit i have not been wearing rubber bands, i am too tired to take the time to put that crap in!


Well now im going to bed.





Alex






Take it all away, ill still be the same, Im gonna prove to you all, DREAMS DO COME TRUE if u just believe...

11:31pm: Crying out for help this time.

 

 

 

                          I seriously wonder why i am the one being treated so poorly. I just dont get how someone can be so cruel to one another. I think half of u are finally getting to realize what hell going to school is for me. and i think a lot of you are realizing that , it cant be easy. Well i hope ur realizing that. Cause im so sick of everyone treating me like a peasant in a feudal system. im just as good as all of you, if not any better. It just doesnt make sense. Anything that u say is just like a rehotical question asking urself if ur a physco. i guess all im trying to say is....

 

 

 

I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND YOU PEOPLE!!!

 

please could u just one day try to understand me, try to get to know me, get to know the person that i am, not that i come off to be.. just dig deeper. thanks..

 

 

 

:: Comment on what u think my situation is and a solution to it ::

3:42pm: Hey...Wow.
I am singing really loud. Im in a singing mood. I just remember to add something to the last entry.. but i decided to make it into a new entry.

I had a really interesting conversation with Stacey the other day at practice. i never knew someone could go through this far into their life. im sorry for everything that has happened Stacey!! I know some people piss u at practice!! lol ...

well im getting excited cause people are coming over tonight to give me presents!! lol this is going to be fun! well i dont know what else i just wanted to really say that im sorry stacey!

12:07am: " cause five months means nothing to you "

        

 

              Well everyone that was a shocker! Things arent going too well for me right now. I have had a terrible week. One thing led to another or, it was just inncident after inncident. People are always thinking oh alex has it so easy, its all just given to him, the point is , i work harder than anyone else i know. I work my ass off to get to where i am im not just me. Its not that simple.Has someone ever thought that you had everything going for you?? There are so many people who would love to agree with that comment for me. Thanks i appreciate that i really do, its just ... i work harder than it may seem i do.

 

       People are such shit i dont know why i take their shit, its not my fault they arent happy with their lives. But i just wish, just wishing that i could be a stronger person than i really am , and that i know i can be.

 

 

Well for a good news part there is some rumor that jake may drop his part so im very excited!!!